VIDEO – Nick’s First Video Entry

I’ll apologise in advance for not picking up today where I left off last week, but i’ve been wanting to share some video footage with you for so long.

Below is a video of Nick’s First Video Entry on the documentary he started for our daughter Claudia, once he discovered he had pancreatic cancer and wouldn’t be around much longer.

Today’s post will be short in words, but full of emotion.

WARNING: if you were a person close to Nick, you may find the below footage too emotional to watch, I know, because my sister still can’t sit through it. I, on the other hand, love watching the documentary he made, and can smile and laugh along with him.

I hope by sharing this video, you gain further insight into why i’m writing this blog, as a way of keeping Nick’s memory alive, and not just for our daughter, (who’s going to be 5 this year!) but also for our family and friends and anyone who knew Nick.

As per the video, Nick just wanted to be remembered, and while the documentary is a perfect legacy that he’s left behind, so are the beautiful messages, comments, emails etc, that I have received about Nick since launching this site. They are all being stored away for Claudia to read one day, so please keep them coming, I can’t think of a better way for her to know her Dad, than by reading about him from his friends, family, colleagues etc.

I also know there are people reading along, who have never met Nick, so I hope this shows you a little more about us, and the strength he had, to put this video together, after receiving such a terrible diagnosis.

When watching this video I barely recognise myself, since I have changed so much since this was filmed over 3 years ago. I’m a much stronger, positive, independent woman now, all thanks to Nick and what he taught me during his illness.

Without further ado, please find the video below, if you haven’t already skipped all this writing to watch it yet!

So, you crying yet ? Maybe just a slight tear, because if you haven’t gotten emotional watching this, you must be a robot! Ok, just kidding!

I hope you enjoyed this post, let me know if you’d like to see any more video’s, I have 8 hours of footage to sift through!

Til next time, Michela xx

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19 thoughts on “VIDEO – Nick’s First Video Entry

  1. For the past week I’ve been reading your blog since I just recently lost my husband with twin boys that just turned one. I have loved the way you have written your blog in a most uplifting way. I just watched the video and couldn’t stop crying. You can see the love you had for each other and such courage Nick showed throughout. Sending your family much love.

    1. Hi Jennifer, thank you so much for reading along and for your beautiful message. My apologies for not replying sooner, I have taken a short break from my blog.
      I’m so sorry for your loss, I hope you have been able to draw strength from your boys and i’m sure your husband weould be so proud of the way you’ve continued on. My thoughts are with you and your family, much love in return, Michela x

  2. What an incredibly brave, difficult yet beautiful thing to do. I found it very difficult to watch without bawling my eyes out but at the same time it made me smile to see the love & the intensity of emotion wrapped in it. God Bless you & Claudia always…& I’m sure she will know her daddy with this blog & the videos that you guys have made & know how much there was & still is 🙂

    1. Thank you Deepa, yes, my little girl is so loved by her father, these videos show this, and i cant wait to show her when she’s older enough to appreciate it. Nick was determined to leave her something of him and i think he succeeded. Thank you for watching and taking the time to comment, hope you’re well xxx

  3. Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life with us all. You truly are an inspiration. This made me cry and appreciate every moment I have with my loved ones. I’m sure Nick is so proud. Thank you x

    1. Hi Eva,
      Thats exactly why I have shared this video and more importantly, this blog. I want others to see that life is beautiful and precious and we need to appreciate our time here with our loved ones. Thank you so much for reading along and commenting, really appreciate it! xxxx

  4. Hey michela,it was soooo good to see nick alive and talking in this video clip., its so much more personal and real than the photos.what u guys have done is such a gift to ur precious Claudia.and even more beautiful that ur sharing it with us, thank u.i love the video, but it was such a tease, would be great to see more footage.
    an amazing woman with such strength and courage. beautiful inside and out, its even more beautiful to see that u have been lucky enough to find love again and a great father figure for ur beautiful girl.u deserve it.i know i haven’t known u long but i think well be friends for a long time
    god bless u all xoxo

    1. Thanks Sel, what a beautiful msg! I love that you get to watch this never knowing Nick personally, it just puts a voice and face to this blog now and I hope gives it a more real feel. I know he would love that its being watched and commented on. I look forward to watching these with Claudia when she’s older and giving her my commentary at the same time, she’s not all the interested at the moment.
      I look forward to our friendship growing and agree, that we’ll be friends forever more xxx

  5. It’s so good to hear Nick’s voice. Thank you for sharing this M. That moment when Nick is talking and Claudia is looking right at him…OMG! Heart break. I can’t imagine the pain he felt knowing…well you know…knowing he wouldn’t raise his baby girl with you.


    1. Hey P, thanks for watching, im sure it was a surreal moment hearing him again for the first time in over 3 years. This footage still breaks my heart too, but i love watching it and seeing the look in his eyes of both strength and vulnerability, its the Nick I remember the most, the family man. xxx

  6. I really struggled to watch this Chel for so many reasons. I can’t remember the last time I heard nicks voice or the last time I seen him or the last time I seen him this emotional. The strength that you both had during this time – there are really no words. I know I say it over and over but you are a remarkable woman. Someone that doesn’t say how it’s meant to be but lives and breathes it every day. You are someone that I look up to and admire. You give me great perspective on life, something you and nick have always done. To say that I’m sad watching this is an understatement but I love that I get to read and now watch your journey and in a way I take comfort in the fact that I get to see Nick and have that time again. I love you to the moon and back and I’m so proud of who you are and who you’ve become through this. Glad I bullied you in high school to be my bestie now 🙂

    1. Ha, this has got to be the only ‘feelgood’ bully story out there, i’m glad i was too scared of you to say i wasn’t going to be your bestie back in 1993! Thanks for your beautiful msg, I thought you’d like to see Nick again, as im sure so many of his friends did. I was worried about sharing it, but the feedback has been so positive, it shows courage and vulnerability all at once. Thank you for being such a support and noticing the change in me for the better, love you lots too xxx

  7. Yes, crying! Hard to watch but so important because the life he had means so much to all who knew him. Big hugs you’re doing beautifully by sharing xox

  8. Only you could make me laugh & cry simultaneously M. Thanks so much for sharing such a special clip. Love you lots! Xx

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